I guess I wasn't as ready for this as I thought I was. Or I've just been too busy doing nothing.

You know one thing that just gets under my skin is when people try to tell me how I think. Recently I "had" a friend to considered themself a "friend". And they just loved throwing my past in my face and tried to tell me that "I think that all men who play or tickle children are sex offenders."

Hello you @#%&* just because I have it in my journal that I finally realized how my father came to "groom" me was by tickling me and horseplay does NOT mean that I think that every man is a pervert.

This grooming took place over years it wasn't just one time. It doesn't just take a survivor of abuse to figure that out anyone who does research on the matter can figure that out.

And this goes for the rest of you people out there that have nothing better to do then to look down your noses at people who have survived the horrors of sexual abuse.

You need to take a good long look in the mirror and figure out just who the hell you are before you go passing judgements of someone else and use thier abuse against them just to make yourself feel better.

ok I feel better now.

 

The worst part about being emotionally isolated and sexually abused as a child isn't the pain of regret. That is just egocentric. It's the twisted sexual perspective you carry on about who and what your are supposed to procreate with. Even when you try to straighten out your wiring you still can only attract and be attracted to situations that are considered perverse or socially unacceptable. Essentially being condemned to life of solitude or perpetuate a perverse lifestyle.