Hello Everyone,

I am going to be keeping this online journal as a healing tool, as I take the steps toward my recovery from my childhood sexual abuse.

Since I have been doing research on my own, I have come to learn quite a bit about myself. As you will notice in my websites and in my journal I will only be refering to what pertains to myself. Not everything I read pertains to what I have been through or have suffered (or I haven't figured out that it does yet).

Right now I am reading "SECRET SURVIVORS Uncovering Incest and Its Aftereffects in Women" 

By E. Sue Blume

I wrote down 4 1/2 pages of notes, three of them were from chapter one and they all relate to me. One thing that struck me was "If emotionally bonded to the abuser the severity of the physical violation may not be as destructive as the emotional violation." that explains a lot to me, I often wonder why what he did to me didn't bother me as much as WHY he did it to me.

Well I have a lot of notes to type so I will close for now.

Enjoy your stay.